Thursday, February 19, 2009

Relax....

I need to take that advice. I spent yesterday morning in the ER. I was sure I was having a heart attack but instead it was a panic attack. Wow scary stuff. It is amazing how your body gives you signs that you need to slow down and if you don't listen it makes you listen. It is time for me to slow down and simplify. It is no longer something I can put off. I love my family too much to risk not being here for them. I am not quite sure yet how I am going to do it yet but I will start backing out of things and making life easier by being more organized and taking more time for me. Like maybe go and get a haircut....it's been over 2 years because I can do it myself. I try to do everything myself! Molly and I are going to join the YMCA so we can spend time together being active. I am going to nourish my body with things that are good for me concentrating on more veggies and fruit. I am going to relax. I am going to immerse myself in art 2 days a week alone in the studio. I am.

PS sorry for the diary entry...I just feel like I needed to get it out there so I listen to myself. Thanks!

5 comments:

TERI REES WANG said...

Taking the time to do your our own personal inventory, is the best time spent. Good for you. Making a few subtle changes will allow your entire life to open up to fun, free and fabulous life.
"Stop. Think. And....Breath"

List your stressors:
Coffee/Caffine?...Sugar?..Rushing?

Breathing is free.
Walking is free.
Talking is free.
Writing is free.

Be well. Do good.
All ways. All days.

beth said...

It is amazing how hard we are on ourselves.

Kudos to you for stepping back, refocusing and listening to your wake up call. I am constantly inspired by all you do, share and create. You are so talented at your craft and are DESTINED for huge success...in all areas!!

If I could, I would stop over and bring you a nice warm chai :)

ArtSnark said...

Remember that this to will pass...

In my late teens I had some severe panic attacks. Did the ER, Meds, therapy, the whole 9 yards.

finally fired the therapist, flushed the meds & took deep breaths & lots of baby steps....

Just keep taking care of yourself & your loved ones and remember things will get better :D

Kate said...

Wow, I'm so sorry. Panic attacks are no joke. Hope you're feeling better now.

Michelle said...

Saw the ambulance but didn't realize it was YOU they were taking away! Glad to hear you're okay! I've had a series of anxiety attacks and have learned to recognize the symptoms ahead of time so I can head them off. Once I stopped worrying about everyone else and focused on ME they seemed to fade away. I couldn't please everyone and I can't control what they think of me so I just live in my own happy little world now. Take care of yourself Kim, not for your family, FOR YOU! Your family is the bonus!!!